Monday, April 25, 2011
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Behind the Inhaler Pt. 24
Like Mr. Potter suggested I will cast Julius Caesar the movie...my way. This should be interesting.
Caesar - Nicholas Cage
Brutus - Tom Hanks
Cassius -Heath Ledger (do they have to be living)?
Marc Antony - Frankie Muniz
Calpurnia - Helena Bonham Carter
Portia - Natalie Portman
Soothsayer - Morgan Freeman
Lucius - Jason Isaacs
Before you judge my choices hear me out!
Caesar is to be played by Nicholas Cage for a few reasons. The first being I dislike his acting/his movies/ and most everything about him. Sort of simular to how I and the conspirators felt about Caesar. I would not shed a tear if Nicholas Cage left Hollywood. Plus he needs a new movie that doesn't involve a famous old document that holds the secret to our survival...because he's done it. Many times.
Brutus would be played by Tom Hanks simply because Tom Hanks has proven himself to be a notable and worthy actor and I think he'd just do a great job. Plus every movie he touches seems to turn into gold.
Cassius would be played by Heath Ledger (if he were still alive) simply because he did such a great job being the twisted antagonist in The Dark Knight. Plus with Tom and Nick you need some sort of appeal to get girls to see this movie.
Marc Antony would be played by Frankie Muniz simply because when I think of young, annoying, peppy Hollywood actors he came to mind. Plus I think it would just be hilarious to watch him attempt to act in something not derived for an audience younger than ten.
Cal would be played by Helena simply because she's a phenomenal actress. It's not the type of role she usually does but that doesn't matter much to me. I've enjoyed her work in every movie I've seen her in.
Portia would be played by Natalie Portman because she proved in Star Wars that she can play the whiny/annoying/nagging/senile woman role. I was never too impressed by her personally. I have yet to watch Black Swan so maybe my opinion of her will change.
The Soothsayer would be played by Morgan Freeman because anyone who doesn't listen to him probably deserves what's coming. I mean come on...if Morgan Freeman was talking to you...you'd listen.
And Jason Isaccs would play Lucius. I wonder if anyone gets why I chose that...haha I'm not going to explain why because it's so obvious.
I can't honestly said I'd see this movie even with Helena and Tom.
Caesar - Nicholas Cage
Brutus - Tom Hanks
Cassius -Heath Ledger (do they have to be living)?
Marc Antony - Frankie Muniz
Calpurnia - Helena Bonham Carter
Portia - Natalie Portman
Soothsayer - Morgan Freeman
Lucius - Jason Isaacs
Before you judge my choices hear me out!
Caesar is to be played by Nicholas Cage for a few reasons. The first being I dislike his acting/his movies/ and most everything about him. Sort of simular to how I and the conspirators felt about Caesar. I would not shed a tear if Nicholas Cage left Hollywood. Plus he needs a new movie that doesn't involve a famous old document that holds the secret to our survival...because he's done it. Many times.
Brutus would be played by Tom Hanks simply because Tom Hanks has proven himself to be a notable and worthy actor and I think he'd just do a great job. Plus every movie he touches seems to turn into gold.
Cassius would be played by Heath Ledger (if he were still alive) simply because he did such a great job being the twisted antagonist in The Dark Knight. Plus with Tom and Nick you need some sort of appeal to get girls to see this movie.
Marc Antony would be played by Frankie Muniz simply because when I think of young, annoying, peppy Hollywood actors he came to mind. Plus I think it would just be hilarious to watch him attempt to act in something not derived for an audience younger than ten.
Cal would be played by Helena simply because she's a phenomenal actress. It's not the type of role she usually does but that doesn't matter much to me. I've enjoyed her work in every movie I've seen her in.
Portia would be played by Natalie Portman because she proved in Star Wars that she can play the whiny/annoying/nagging/senile woman role. I was never too impressed by her personally. I have yet to watch Black Swan so maybe my opinion of her will change.
The Soothsayer would be played by Morgan Freeman because anyone who doesn't listen to him probably deserves what's coming. I mean come on...if Morgan Freeman was talking to you...you'd listen.
And Jason Isaccs would play Lucius. I wonder if anyone gets why I chose that...haha I'm not going to explain why because it's so obvious.
I can't honestly said I'd see this movie even with Helena and Tom.
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Behind the Inhaler Pt. 23
I'm very excited about fourth quarter starting, the end is near and I am ready to start my "summer festivities." Looking back now 3rd quarter for the most part was pretty enjoyable!
I ended the quarter with a 3.9GPA, which is slightly aggravating. I have all 'A's' but two are '-A's' which I guess isn't "good enough." But I'm not too bent out of shape about it, a 3.9 is still good.
Speaking of grades and all I've been getting an insane amount of mail from colleges. Some colleges are incredibly annoying, almost stalker like. "Are you ignoring us Stephanie?" "We haven't heard from you in five minutes Stephanie." etc. I mean...really? I've never even heard of some of these colleges. Today I received one giant packet from Carolina Coastal University, never heard of them. It's pretty nerve wracking and only reminds me that sooner or later I'm going to have to pick a major. I honestly have no clue or no desire to peruse any career at this point. So if you have suggestions, let's hear them.
I became way more dedicated in my riding this quarter. I'm in the process of trialing horses to lease for the end of spring/summer/fall season. Leasing a horse is somewhat like leasing a car. It just depends on your contract. The first horse I tried was "Jimmy" who was a jolly-green giant (double meanings hehe)! After I road him for a week and decided that I'd be interested in actually perusing a lease with him his owners decided he was no longer for lease, but I could buy him. Go figure. He was a bit too green with my back in it's current condition anyway. The most recent horse I went to see was promising and I'm excited about the prospect of leasing him. His name's "Austintatious," just Austin around the barn. I drove down to O.U.'s barn to try him and had a blast. There's another party interest who will be trialing him next Friday, I should find out then if I can lease him or not. I really, really hope things with Austin work out.
Lastly, now that spring's here I can finally go out and partake in fun outdoor activities. My friend Martha and I go hiking/creeking all the time in various woods which is really fun. We're also able to ride outside now, and swim in the pond (which we probably won't do for a while since the pond is still much cooler than the air). I enjoy spring. I like thunderstorms and lightning, I like how green everything looks even though I'm deadly allergic to it, and I also like knowing that summer is just around the corner.
Have a nice week everybody!
Peter after eating some Peep's. I call him Peep usually so I really enjoy feeding them to him haha
I ended the quarter with a 3.9GPA, which is slightly aggravating. I have all 'A's' but two are '-A's' which I guess isn't "good enough." But I'm not too bent out of shape about it, a 3.9 is still good.
Speaking of grades and all I've been getting an insane amount of mail from colleges. Some colleges are incredibly annoying, almost stalker like. "Are you ignoring us Stephanie?" "We haven't heard from you in five minutes Stephanie." etc. I mean...really? I've never even heard of some of these colleges. Today I received one giant packet from Carolina Coastal University, never heard of them. It's pretty nerve wracking and only reminds me that sooner or later I'm going to have to pick a major. I honestly have no clue or no desire to peruse any career at this point. So if you have suggestions, let's hear them.
I became way more dedicated in my riding this quarter. I'm in the process of trialing horses to lease for the end of spring/summer/fall season. Leasing a horse is somewhat like leasing a car. It just depends on your contract. The first horse I tried was "Jimmy" who was a jolly-green giant (double meanings hehe)! After I road him for a week and decided that I'd be interested in actually perusing a lease with him his owners decided he was no longer for lease, but I could buy him. Go figure. He was a bit too green with my back in it's current condition anyway. The most recent horse I went to see was promising and I'm excited about the prospect of leasing him. His name's "Austintatious," just Austin around the barn. I drove down to O.U.'s barn to try him and had a blast. There's another party interest who will be trialing him next Friday, I should find out then if I can lease him or not. I really, really hope things with Austin work out.
Lastly, now that spring's here I can finally go out and partake in fun outdoor activities. My friend Martha and I go hiking/creeking all the time in various woods which is really fun. We're also able to ride outside now, and swim in the pond (which we probably won't do for a while since the pond is still much cooler than the air). I enjoy spring. I like thunderstorms and lightning, I like how green everything looks even though I'm deadly allergic to it, and I also like knowing that summer is just around the corner.
Have a nice week everybody!
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Behind the Inhaler Pt. 22
I wish I could blog about my luxurious Spring Break in some far off land surrounded by palm trees and sand but that's not exactly how my Spring Break went. The first weekend was nice it started off with me having a lesson at the barn on Friday. I road Ringmaster who was good but very fresh seeing as we road in the spacious outdoor arena for the first time in months. For whatever reason horses seem to forget how to function outside after the winter.
On Saturday I walked over to East (more like ran) in desperate need to blow some steam so I threw discus for the first time since June regardless of my spine issues. I was pushing mid 90's at a stationary throw which was heartbreaking and exciting at the same time. I feel like I could have had a really successful season if my spine wasn't as bipolar as Charley Sheen.
On Tuesday is when the real fun began. My bottom right wisdom tooth was eroding my jaw while my left bottom was close to severing a main nerve which is why I had all four of my wisdom teeth extracted. I had a bad track record with surgery so I was really nervous. My first surgery they kept me awake and ended up only numbing a potion of the site. To make it worse they botched the stitching and I will forever have this large scar that sets above the skin and is the size of a dime. For this one they put me right under (thank God).
I remember just being very "wind tunnel-y" when they put the gas on and when they first inserted the IV. Everyone sounded like they were miles away. My thoughts were clear but when I spoke it sounded like I was speaking into a fan. It was a bizarre sensation. I woke up an hour and thirty minutes later hysterically crying. I remember being in the car and then waking up in bed coughing up blood, choking on gauze, and light headed.
I was pretty miserable.
My diet for four days consisted of apple sauce, soft Hawaiian rolls, and ice cream. To put things into perspective it took me an hour and fifteen minutes to eat two soft rolls. I usually just ignored the hunger. I burned more calories trying to eat than actually eating.
My friends came to visit me often bringing me food, flowers, and entertainment. I don't actually remember what all happened on Tuesday/Wednesday and parts of Thursday simply because of the medications I was on. Supposedly I was very entertaining under the influence.
I spent my whole break recovering which didn't seem to come. My other friend who had her surgery on the same day was up and at 'em by Thursday while I was still in throbbing pain until Monday when I went back in (almost a week later) and was diagnosed with a dry socket on my right bottom. Which explains my extreme pain and why pain med's didn't help it.
Dry socket is rare (only 2% of people contract one which naturally is why I got one) and is really painful. I thought maybe it was just normal never having had oral surgery before. It's a blood clot that attacks the nerves and might make another surgery necessary if the paste which they put on Monday doesn't work.
The past which is a melody of acids is the foulest substance to ever be consumed or allowed for consumption. It tasted like sharpie markers, cloves, and metal. It burns and continues to burn and disturb my mouth as I type.
I think I'm like a medical magnet. If there's a slim chance that you can possibly get this from this...I will 99% of the time get it. It could be worse, and I realize that. I just really wish that it didn't always seem to be me haha because it always seems to be me.
I hope you all had a nice break!
On Saturday I walked over to East (more like ran) in desperate need to blow some steam so I threw discus for the first time since June regardless of my spine issues. I was pushing mid 90's at a stationary throw which was heartbreaking and exciting at the same time. I feel like I could have had a really successful season if my spine wasn't as bipolar as Charley Sheen.
On Tuesday is when the real fun began. My bottom right wisdom tooth was eroding my jaw while my left bottom was close to severing a main nerve which is why I had all four of my wisdom teeth extracted. I had a bad track record with surgery so I was really nervous. My first surgery they kept me awake and ended up only numbing a potion of the site. To make it worse they botched the stitching and I will forever have this large scar that sets above the skin and is the size of a dime. For this one they put me right under (thank God).
I remember just being very "wind tunnel-y" when they put the gas on and when they first inserted the IV. Everyone sounded like they were miles away. My thoughts were clear but when I spoke it sounded like I was speaking into a fan. It was a bizarre sensation. I woke up an hour and thirty minutes later hysterically crying. I remember being in the car and then waking up in bed coughing up blood, choking on gauze, and light headed.
I was pretty miserable.
My diet for four days consisted of apple sauce, soft Hawaiian rolls, and ice cream. To put things into perspective it took me an hour and fifteen minutes to eat two soft rolls. I usually just ignored the hunger. I burned more calories trying to eat than actually eating.
My friends came to visit me often bringing me food, flowers, and entertainment. I don't actually remember what all happened on Tuesday/Wednesday and parts of Thursday simply because of the medications I was on. Supposedly I was very entertaining under the influence.
I spent my whole break recovering which didn't seem to come. My other friend who had her surgery on the same day was up and at 'em by Thursday while I was still in throbbing pain until Monday when I went back in (almost a week later) and was diagnosed with a dry socket on my right bottom. Which explains my extreme pain and why pain med's didn't help it.
Dry socket is rare (only 2% of people contract one which naturally is why I got one) and is really painful. I thought maybe it was just normal never having had oral surgery before. It's a blood clot that attacks the nerves and might make another surgery necessary if the paste which they put on Monday doesn't work.
The past which is a melody of acids is the foulest substance to ever be consumed or allowed for consumption. It tasted like sharpie markers, cloves, and metal. It burns and continues to burn and disturb my mouth as I type.
I think I'm like a medical magnet. If there's a slim chance that you can possibly get this from this...I will 99% of the time get it. It could be worse, and I realize that. I just really wish that it didn't always seem to be me haha because it always seems to be me.
I hope you all had a nice break!
Saturday, March 26, 2011
It's Kind of a Funny World
Dear Reader,
This is the happiest book about suicide and depression you will ever read. For some teens issues like untrustworthy friends and bad hair would be a nice break from the harsh reality that boils beneath their rough exterior. For some teens getting up in the morning or the option of not getting up in the morning is a daily issue. Some teens feel alone, unwanted, unneeded, and truly lost. Why bother living in a world that you can’t handle? Why bother living?
The theme I chose to base this blog around is living, more specifically choosing to live. Choosing to help yourself, grow, challenge, hurt and learn from what you’ve been through. I chose this theme because Craig the main character of my book made one of the bravest decisions a depressed/suicidal teen can make he chose to get help, he chose life. I found his story inspiring, and I hope that his new found acceptance for life can help and inspire others.
The theme of choosing life will be demonstrated in this blog through various ways. The first of which is an example of Craig, the main character talking to himself. Something he did throughout his struggle to find his will to live and long battle with depression. Some days the voices in Craig’s head won, on others he won, but in the end he chose life. The second way I’ll demonstrate the theme is through the “Day in the Life…” of someone who chooses to live as opposed to someone who doesn’t. Thirdly I will show this theme in ten ways to know if you should choose to live. And lastly I will demonstrate the theme through personal pictures of things in my life that make me want to live.
Sincerely,
Stephanie McCann
Life is like a coin. You can spend it any way you wish, but you only spend it once.
Lillian Dickson
Lillian Dickson
It’s so tempting. The thought of never having to feel pain again left to float around in an endless pool of nothingness. That’s if we do all end up floating around after we go I guess that would be Forrest Gump theory. I can just leave and float around all accidental like on a breeze. But what if we don’t? What if I am damned to spend eternity in hell, I would after all have committed sin.
What would my family think? What about Nia and Aaron? Aaron and I would never open our own law firm. What would he do then? What would I do? Oh…right I’d do nothing. I’d be floating or in hell. Aaron would continue to attend Executive Pre Professional and I would float. He would be successful…and I would be nothing. A page for a scrapbook, a sentence in his life’s memoir…I’d be reduced to a memory. A simple memory like Craig Gilner never even lived. Not at least the way I see living…living is well…doing.
If I was floating I would be able to do anything…I’d be nothing. I would finish school, get with a girl, get a job, get a house, make it big…I would have any of that. I wouldn’t just be a page in a memoir…hell I could write my own!
I don’t want to be nothing…I want to be “Oh that’s Craig Gilner, he’s successful,” not “Oh that’s Craig…he’s…well we don’t talk about him.” I want to be someone. I don’t want to be reduced to a memory. I want…I want to live.
I want to go to school, make it big, and maybe even write a book about it. That’s right! Craig, the boy who lived.
He who has a why to live can bear almost any how.
~Friedrich Nietzsche
The day in the life of someone who choose life …
You wake up the smell of breakfast hits your nostrils like a brick to the face. Your hunger and worries for the day are washed down with your second glass of juice. It’s bright outside; a gentle breeze shifts the leaves conducting a symphony of soft rustling noises.
You have a full day ahead of you. Crammed with seemingly mundane activities…but that’s alright. You have your whole life ahead of you. Take comfort in the light at the end of the tunnel.
At the end of the day you look back at your days work. It was hard. No one said life was easy but it’s alright. Because you made it, you survived another day unscaved and ready to take on what life hands you next.
The day in the life of someone who doesn’t choose life…
Don't go around saying the world owes you a living. The world owes you nothing. It was here first.
~Mark Twain
Ten reasons you should choose life:
- You have friends
- You have a family
- You’re educated
- You’re loved
- It could be worse
- You have an endless world of possibilities
- You’ve made it this far
- Things are going to change
- Millions of people before have done it
- You’re alive
The tragedy of life is not so much what men suffer, but rather what they miss.
~Thomas Carlyle
My amazing friends are just one of the things that keep me going. Martha and I have been friends since the ends of sixth grade and have become almost inseparable. Our friendship has helped me through many difficult times.
Another thing in my life that makes it worth living is my music. I've been playing the cello for seven years and have really grown to love it. It's something I'll always have in my life. Not everyone can say they're fluent in an instrument.
Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love and to work and to play and to look up at the stars.
~Henry Van Dyke
I choose these particular genres to go along with my theme because I thought I could be creative and enjoy making them at the same time. For the talking to self I started off with Craig in a darker mind set and tried to convey his inner struggle before he finally realized that he did in fact have reasons to live. In my “a day in the life” section I tried to dramatize the difference between someone who choose to live and someone who well…didn’t. I chose to do ten reasons to know if you should choose life because everyone truly has something in their life worth living for. Some people just don’t realize it. Lastly I chose to show pictures of things from my personal life that encourages me to keep going at the end of the day. I didn’t have much difficulty other than writers block and a lack of motivation to actually do the project. I liked the freedom of the project but for whatever reason I just couldn’t find the motivation to do it. I think it’s interesting how it’s a blog project. It is very 21st century. I learned that you can convey the theme of a story through many different ways.
Works Cited
http://www.quotegarden.com/life.html
All pictures belong to me. Song pictured is Three Cheers for Five Years all music belongs to Mayday Parade.
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